Currently Reading Hiding from Love By Dr. John Townsend see related

A long time...

I feel like years have past by me since I last posted on xanga.  I guess with Grad school, work, E-mail, and of course the ever popular facebook!  In the end though I miss the process of journaling... 

 Life has been a valley the past few weeks.  Every moment of  my day is filled with schoolwork, classes, and work... I fought back for longer than I want to admit.  I thought I could learn how to control my situation.  Silly me!  It only took me three weeks to finally acknowledge I could not control every aspect of my life!  I could not plan a week in advance, I could only live day by day.  To synthesize, it has felt as though it were the craziest finals week every week thus far!  Granted, I am taking more than what is recommended and working 20 hours a week, but I really thought I could get ahead and have it all!  I fought for a while to get out by controlling it, and I was miserable.  I was slowly becoming discontent with all that God had blessed me with.  Finally, He showed me my foolish ways!  He showed me that I could not control everything -only He could.  I was reminded again and again that everything I came accross in my day was allowed by God.  I learned that I could not climb out of this valley, but if I surrender my hopeless fight, He would walk with me.  Once I accepted His warm embrace in the valley, rather than try to climb to the mountain tops on my own, I felt so free!   So free from all the sin and negativism that Satan had tempted me with and that I had fallen for.  Even though I am still in the valley, I almost sense that I am really flying!  My decision to hold God's hand and to get to know Him better through this valley has blessed me so much!  And He has been so gracious to me!  He has blessed me in so many small ways!  Everything from a backrub to a MP3 player.  There is a difference between this valley and the majority of the other valleys I have gone through.  I know it has to do with my surrender to God.  In the past I felt that God was distant.  I felt no comfort from Him, nor could I always see Him in the valley.  Now, I feel that He is so near to me!  Even though my reality has not changed and the valley appears to loom on, I am holding His hand tightly, and I am confident that He will be glorified through this valley!

How silly was I to try walking through the valley without holding His hand!

Currently Reading Waking the Dead: The Glory of a Heart Fully Alive By John Eldredge see related

I miss my family...  and I won't be seeing them for another 6 weeks...

Oh well, I will survive... somehow...

(I must also admit that I miss the snow!)

October is here once again...

It is hard to believe that a year has past... so much has happened and changed, yet so much is still the same.  I am very thankful for this new season in my life.  It is full of blessings from God.  He has given me a great house to live in, amazing classes and professors, great friends, a great job, a Grandma that turned 87 years old today, and the list goes on...  I love grad school, CIU, the Y, House 13, the South, etc...

Thank God for all the blessing He gives us even when we don't deserve it!

P.S.  I am not leaving xanga, however I am now also on facebook: Heather Mossop

Currently Listening The Beatles 1 By The Beatles see related

There have been many time throughout my life when I wonder if I am really where God wants me and whether I am doing what He wants me to do.  Thoughts of doubt plague my mind to the point where I question everything and remain in a state of confusion for a time.  Right now though, He has affirmed His calling upon my life through many people, my classes/labs, and His Word.  How wonderfully good He is to me!  I am thrilled to see how He will be glorified here at CIU!